Warning : Overflowed by memories

In a second
it all comes back
all that was buried inside,
deep in that big hole in my heart
that I keep covering and covering
(but never gets fully covered)
comes out...
I'm overflowed,
there are too many memories to handle,
too many problems try to reach my mind
and I keep getting traped by them.
I try to recover,
but the slightest memory,
the smallest word
brings out the worst in me,
the things within the hole I keep recovering
(but never gets fully covered).
If only it was that simple,
(What if it is?)
If only I could forget...
(What if I can't...)
Doubts fill my thoughts
and my eyes with tears.
Too much,
Such little time,
So many things to handle...
I may be happy,
but happiness can be temporary,
it's just a state of mind...
Forget, Forgive, Fullfil,
3 words I can't seem to reach,
When I am almost there,
something gets in the way.
Maybe someday
I will be able to grab the happiness of oblivion
and make it mine.
I wish I could...