Little less , little more

I can never understand everything

everything is un-understandable

maybe I'm reading in between the lines, 

maybe I'm not,

can this be me overreacting

or is this me seeing clearly?

Am I not seeing the signs?

Am I not guessing the meaning of the words?

I wished things were less enigmatic

I wish this was a little more pragmatic,

objective

concrete,

I wish I could just go and tell you

"I love you"

I wish you'd say the same,

or at least feel.

Almost one month

and I still can't take it,

the stupid song on the radio makes me sad

because tought of moving on 

not knowing that is finished or not

makes me stand still in time

not moving a muscle of my heart towards a new chapter.

This is not healthy,

but I can't do anything

I'm to scared,

tight grabed in that anchor

that hope that things might be the same again

and still that might not be true

I don't know, and I wished I did

how will things be between me and you.